AARON'S DREAM

LYRICS

Morning, and I'm mourning
Dawn, and it's dawning
On me, not asleep
But desperate to be
I wanna slip into subconsciousness
Slip inside the dream
That my life has never been as grim and awful as it seems

I close my eyes and start to dream
To chase away the high gone bad
I start to fantasise and see a life where I'm a dad
And I make it all up piece by piece
My bird becomes my wife
And this little boy that's just like me completes this happy life

His mother's twenty-three
But I've aged her past her wildest dreams
The sleepless nights of ceiling stares in bed waiting for me
And I fear the day our unborn son with tug my sleeve and say to me
'Daddy, what were you doing when you were in your twenties?'

Then the nightmare 'comes too real
And my eyes start playing tricks on me
I see this little boy at every afters in the city
Hallucinating innocence, hallucinating depravity
Halluncinating my ghostly son dead before he even breathes

I'm sitting in the bathroom whilst he's playing hide and seek
I'm oversharing with a stranger whilst he's trying to speak to me
Having nosebleeds in a sink too high for him to peer and see
The parts of his pathetic heartless father start to bleed

And the tap's on but the blood stays
I'm tapped into these bad ways
I'd detox but these Class A's
Keep sticking to me like bad days
Throw my life savings on Betway
Throw this life that can't be saved away
Tell everyone I'm okay
Tell myself I'm okay

Cocaine on the kitchen side
Fag ash on the floor
He rolls a toy car beneath finger paintings on the fridge door
And I sense something familiar
About this point in time
And as he turns his face I see
The boys face is mine